Why there is political problem in office or where ever there is human??? Why can people just live other people alone? I hate this problem and it has been repeating in my life. It happen in studying life, working life and social life. What is the problem with HUMAN??? I did not do anything wrong. I just want to live a simple life. Get a job and earn enough money to get my own house, car and travel once in a while.
I face the stupid human politic when in my previous job and i had a hard time over come it. I was hoping the same thing will not happen or i will be stronger in facing this problem. I still can't, i'm still very weak in handling this problem. Today i get to know that there is someone in work place back stab me in front of my boss. At the very moment i feel that there is no body i can trust in this world. I've learn to put my trust in people but now i start to losing them. People that i see everyday, talk, laugh and work with.
I've learn to be a person who only trust myself and be selfish. No point helping others and end up get hurt badly. Unless someone get to convince me if not I'm going to keep to this principal.
Happy Near Year!!!! Hahahaha.... I'm a bit slow!!! So fast, is already half a month gone. I was in kuching for the 1st weekend of the year. Have a great time there. Get to spend some quality time with Cindy, Darrel, Melvin, Derek and Kiew. They really feed me a lot of food. Don't have time to digest, the next thing i know it is time for the next meal. Get to relax and have fun. Was a good start for the year. This will be a greater year for me. This year I'll be buying my 1st house. I'm also planning to travel to a few places. To fulfill both this wishes i need to work very hard to earn a lot of money!!!! If can i will be going back to Perth end of the year, I miss everyone back there!!!Nothing much go on with me, at the moment my life is work, work nothing but work!!!! I'll keep you all update. I hope there is something interesting that i come share but at the moment my life is quite boring for some of you!!!
Working life is never fun...Although i could learn a lot of new things and can be fun at time but the worse thing is tiring!!!!!! After back in Malaysia for a month, I've no choice but to start working. If not I've to eat grass for living. Just Joking. Last week i've work 7 days. This week i'm stuck again with work and have to choice and work 7 days again. What kind of job is this!!!!!!!! I've to go up to Penang with my team this week. It will be challenging and TIRING. 8 Days to Christmas. I can;t wait for it to arrive cause by then i can catch up with my beauty sleep and my lovely friends. I've been scolded that ever since i come back from Australia I haven spend much time hanging out with friends. I've been keeping myself at home enjoying the great and lovely time by myself. Mom making noise that I stay home too much. She say i should go out. I just love spending time at home. There is so many things we can do at home. Ya i have to go out of the house and spend some time with my friends. LOL!!! Anyway working life is tiring. I WANT TO GO BACK TO STUDY LIFE!!! People who are still studying, pls enjoy it!!!!
I was suppose to start work on the 1st December 2008 which is tomorrow but unfortunately i can't. I was told to report next week. I'm suffering the pain of before and after effect of wisdom tooth. I extracted 1 about 2 weeks ago and suffer for almost 1 week then i decided if there is no pain cause by the others wisdom tooth then i won't bother about it.
Who on earth will know 3 days after making the decision, my wisdom tooth give me a warning sign. I had a tooth ache, the pain was terrible till i could not open my mouth. So out of no choice i have to go to the doctor and have a minor operation to get rid of that wisdom tooth of mine on Friday. Don't ever think after getting it away will let you release your suffering. The effect of getting rid of it is, i have a swollen face, not only that the pain is still there and i got fever!!!!!! I did not get a good sleep before and after the wisdom tooth being extract. Thanks God I got a week to rest before i start work!!!!
It has been a long time since i last update my blog. Finally I'm now back in Malaysia. It has been a week back in Kuantan. Nothing much i can do back here. Just relaxing and enjoying life before i start joining the working community in Malaysia. I miss Perth so much. I never expect I'll miss there so much. Nothing much has change back in Kuantan other then there is a few new housing development and there is a new mall. I spend most of my time at home. Haven got the chance to go to the beach although the beach is only like 10 min drive from my house. Yesterday i went to the hospital to get my wisdom tooth extract. My face now is so swollen. i wont take picture to show so don't ask me to do so!!! I'll be having another 1 in 2 weeks time. I hope that day never come. So pain!!!!!
For the last few days, I've been going through the pictures taken when my parent was in Australia. we took a lot of pictures. I'll update my facebook and post the pictures as soon as i can. Being back home make me lazy. I've been catching up a lot with my lovely sleep and also drama. I need to do all this before i start work. I really have no idea how should i continue but i think this is enough for the update at this point of time.
Another week, another week, yeah yeah my parent coming......I've been looking forward for this for so long. I've been planning for their arrival since the beginning of the year. Imagine me buying ticket in February and finding for accommodation for them since then. Who on earth will plan things almost 6 months ahead. Only me!!! Time pass fast as i wanted to, but i also hope there will be a pause when my parent is here and me spending remaining time in Australia.
I'll be going to Gold Coast to meet them up spend a few days there then we going to Tasmania. Spend another few days there. Come back to Melbourne. Travel a bit in Melbourne then I'm off back to Perth. After Convocation I'll have to say good bye to Australia. I'm entering in the new phase of my life. A life that i want to avoid that's WORKING LIFE... Anne, Ying Sim and Khing Zu are graduating in October as well. They are my Kuantan's buddies. Congratulation to all 3. We use to have a lot of plans we want to do after graduate high school but until now still haven succeed. People i still waiting. KZ faster get your passport done. You slow..... Worse then snail!!!
My dear friend Ying Yi is also joining me back in Malaysia. She is coming back from the state and we will be working in Malaysia. She is also from Kuantan. We both studied in KL then she come to Australia. I was suppost to come but financially not premitted then when i finally coming to Australia she going back to Malaysia. Fine, the next thing she tell me she going to the state. But i'm glad she coming back. I can wait to meet up with all of them. Have so many good memories....
It will be nice if time could just pause at fun and happy moments and pass faster when we going through stuggling or sad moments. But this never happen. It is always the other way round. Time seem to pass so fast when we are having great time. Time pass terribly slow when we not happy.......
I'm looking forward for everything coming ahead..............................
Without realizing what have i done for the pass weeks is already October 2008. 29th days from now will be my convocation and then off back to Malaysia i go. For the past few weeks since i arrived in Melbourne I've been thinking a lot. Other than, going shopping or hang out in the city. I've think of so many areas in my life. From career to personal life to what I've done and going to do. There is so many "want" that u want. But all this things are to satisfy myself. I've been thinking I'm so bless, I know Christ and faithfully still walking with HIM. What if I don't know HIM. Will i still be today me? Will i still go through what I've go through? But I'm sure he makes me a better person today. Without HIM loving me and always there to encourage me. I'm sure I'm not the person I am today. I've been so blessed. Having everything that provided for me, sometime I take it for granted. I've been praying for direction for a very long time ever since before I finish my last semester in University. I am uncertain with what I want in life. I'm still confused till today on my future. Will I be successful? I want to be someone He can use. I don't want to be selfish. I don't want to pray prayer all about me. I want to bless other as how he has blessed me and still blessing me!!!
I've read a book and it remind me of the pass operations that I went through few years back and the recent 1 was a month before I come to Perth. I've realize how short and dangerous life can be. The 1st operation was just a minor when I was 12, no impact in my life. The 2nd operation is where it starts to change my life. It was a leg operational and it happen when I was 17. After that operation, I visited the hospital so often and now I have the fear going there.I thought that was all that I need to go through and I’m going to be healthy.
After a few years, in the year 2005 I almost die. That day, I was waked up by a very sharp in my stomach. I thought was normal stomach ache but it wasn’t.I can’t even stand up to open the door.It was so pain that I don’t know how to explain. I know something was not right. I grab my phone beside me and call my housemate. Thanks God she was still at home. I remember she have to break the door to get into my room as I’ve lock the door. She was panic when she saw my condition. I ask her to call a friend of mine that has a car. I say I need to get to the hospital. Then after calling my friend she calls the college.The next min that I know of, there is a few person in my room. They were figuring out what to do. Finally they decided to send me to the hospital cause by waiting for the ambulance to come I think I die it also haven arrived. Thank God for my dad who working in the Health Ministry he manage to get the people in the hospital to get ready for my arrival. They took my blood and did a few checks and they can find what the cause is. By that time I’ve past out a few time by the pain. Finally the push me into the scanning room and did a few scan, they found out there is a growth in me and it burse and it is very messy and is life threatening. Doctor called my parent and they talk to them on the phone. My parent is back in my hometown and I’m all alone in KL. I was in no peace at that time. I don’t want to die so young, there is so many things I haven do.While they were discussing what best for me, the doctor in HKL has already got the operation theater ready. But my dad insists me flying back to Kuantan and gets the operation done there. The doctor advises not to do so because I may not make it. There is where I remember church elders and pastors who are there for me. They bought the flight ticket for me and then send me to the airport. I can’t remember what happen in between cause I pass out so many times. Imagine the pain killer didn’t help at all. I took the next flight off back to Kuantan. I was vomiting the whole 30 min journey. The moment I touch down. I was send by an ambulance to Kuantan General Hospital. The prepare me and then I was push into the operation theater.The operation took 2hrs and by the time I was awake was already pass mid night. I was in hospital for the whole week after discharge I was at home for 3 months. Even I was hospitalize and absent from class, I still seat for my final exam and by God grace I still pass all papers.
After that incident I told myself I don’t want to step into the hospital and I don’t want any more experience like this. Once is enough. Not unit June 1, 2007. A month before I come to Perth and 2 days before my childhood friend’s wedding. Again I experience the pain. I say that not going to happen again and I’m thought going to die this time. I’ve go for my check up frequently and as I know I’m doing well. That morning I was supposed to bring my mom and sis for shopping and my dad was in work. I told my mom I’m having this pain so badly and is a similar pain I have. I took 4 panadol and the pain is still there. My mom was panic and immediately she called my dad. My dad asks me if I can drive to his office and from there he will send me to the hospital. At that time he was having meeting with the director of Serdang Hospital. So the director called his doctor and emergency unit and asks them to get ready for me. With the pain I drive for 30 min to my dad office and then pass out after that. I was admitted again but this time is because of appendices. I was asking the doctor is there any way I don’t go through an operation. I’m so scared to hear the word operation. Again no choice I go through the operation and insist to be discharge the next day. Just imagine doctor try to avoid coming into my ward as I’ve been asking for discharge the moment I open my eyes. I want a discharge cause I can’t stand staying any longer in the hospital and I don’t want to miss my friend’s wedding. I go to the wedding in my wheel chair. A month later I fly to Perth as schedule.
Life can be so challenging and what I learn from all is we must appreciate every moment we have and live in meaningfully. It’s going to be tough but I know with God everything is possible. I also learn that he will not let me go because he loves me so much. I learn a lot from the process of healing. This is my 1st time writing it out so clearly as I haven share with anyone because I scared people will see me as not perfect.I hope this could bless who ever that read it.
